yuck

overheard -

sister 1 : where's kuya?
sister 2 : with *girl's name*
sister 1 : yuck! na naman?

i thought i was the only one who had a problem with our brother's incessant fawning over his new, uh, prospect. i guess not. apparently, the female offspring in this household are more independent than the male.

it just hit me the other night how ridiculously often my brother goes out with this girl. as in almost every single night. and how much time they spend talking on the phone. like hours on end. and - get this - how they spend time talking until the wee hours of the morning RIGHT AFTER they've gone out. WHAT. THE. HECK?!?!

it's nice that a guy pays attention to a girl when they're going out, but this is ridiculous. i don't think i can survive that much scrutiny. alright, alright, i've spent quite a bit of time with the last one, but the truth of the matter is, we hardly went out on so-called dates. and we do not spend time chatting on the phone. we had our separate lives. (sometimes TOO separate, to be honest.) where the ex lacked in interest, the brother seems to possess an inordinate amount. it really just grosses me out. i'm sorry. all i can think of is - do you have a LIFE???

but, as the youngest sister puts it - they seem to both be needy and clingy, anyway. so they're happy. fair enough. i rationalise their behaviour by saying that the girl is leaving soon, and they are just making up for potential lost time. or whatever. but really. i would rather drop dead than have a guy be that infatuated with me. it just screams LOSER.

relationships aren't about not being able to survive without each other. it's about being able to survive with each other. and sometimes, it's even simply surviving each other. (admit it, there is always some annoying habit that drives you up the wall.) at the end of the day, i'd like to think that the guy i am with doesn't really need me, but simply chooses to be with me. because it means that any other girl would do fine, but he would rather have me. or maybe he thinks life alone may be good, but life with me is probably better. and that makes it a matter of choice, rather than a matter of circumstance.

it no longer becomes all about him, but about me. more than that, though, it becomes all about US. because it becomes a conscious decision to share everything, between two people.