resilient

many apologies for the lapse in posting. superheroes tend to get busy this time of the year.

right. now where was i? ah, yes... resiliency.

i have to say, i was quite surprised that he moved on to another target this soon. i am speaking of the man (more like boy, as he is a few months younger) i left back home. when i went for holiday last christmas, the boy started dropping by my house almost every evening. at first i thought nothing of it. he is, after all, my best friend. then things started getting uncomfortable... and then, he dropped the bomb.

i was upset at him for all the right reasons. (at least, i would like to think so.) it was an abuse of trust. (i confided in him about the other men i dated.) it destroyed the friendship. and worst of all... he made me think he was interested in someone else. all this time. of course, i was probably partly to blame. i should have seen the signs. but how could i, when i trusted in him so much that he was like a brother to me? i never thought twice about his intentions or affections. he was my best friend, i was his, end of story. or so i thought.

so now, he comes telling me he asked this other girl out. the one he was supposedly interested in back when we were still buds. barely two months after i blew him off. surprise surprise.

now, if he were as sincere as he professed he was in his tear-jerking letter... (and i DO mean tear-jerking; i hardly slept the night i read it) i would have thought that it would tkae him more than eight weeks to get over the hard truth and find someone new. apparently he's stronger than i thought he was. or he's more of a male chauvanist pig than i gave him credit for. whatever.

of course, he has no idea of the thoughts running through my head. he pretty much surrendered his privileges of being foremost confidant when he played the "love" card. and i thought he was different. ha.

men. just when you thought you could trust them.

* PS - just so you have an idea of how deeply i feel about the breach of trust - he was the first man (i thought) i could relate to without having to worry about the love angle. he was the first guy i actually considered a pure friend. i guess i was wrong. i gave the male population too much credit. yet again.